they promised that everything was going to be okay, maybe not now. But soon enough. They promised that my heart would heal. Its been almost a year and I havent seen the light of day. I see that love is against me and so is everyone I want. All alone in this giant world. They promised me that after high school life was going to be better, they were wrong. They promised me the stars and Ive recieved ashes. I want to feel loved again. I want to feel happy. This year im filled with anxiety and so much stress that im exhausted i dont even dream. They promised me a smile and brought me only tears. I drink to numb the pain I smoke to numb the pain I smile to numb the pain. I want to feel loved. I want someone to love me, but I want to let my guard down and love them back.